I’m hurt I don’t think I c an hide it much longer. Anyone dealing with depression knows that it hurts and it can be different for each and every one of us. For me it feels like I’m wrestling with a demon but I can’t tell which side I’m on. Its so fucking stupid to think that the greatest risk posed to me right now is myself and I feel like such a horrible person knowing others are fighting real dangers while I’m here sitting in bed, lying on the floor, writhing as it feels like my whole being is tearing in on itself all the while knowing I should be fine.
I think I’m a waste and my mind won’t let me forget it, my en tire psyche seems to be becoming an outlet for all my worst thoughts, a void where only darkness escapes and I realize how worthless I am.
I’m sorry anyone who reads this I really am but I don’t think I can take this much longer